“This life’s five windows of the soul
Distorts the Heavens from pole to pole,
And leads you to believe a lie
When you see with, not thro’, the eye
That was born in a night, to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in the beams of light.”
– The Everlasting Gospel (William Blake)
Darkness encroaches as the night falls silently. Here, my greatest fears lurk within the shadows. I plunge into an existential void conceived in the mind and experience the inanition of losing touch with the divine.
I am momentarily blinded by my pain. When I lose my vision, the rest of the world cannot find me. Yet, I have to take heart and not be fearful of the night as it only heralds a new beginning. It is time to journey into the sweet darkness to learn to see again.
I start to search without, then within, for the light. The flickering luminescence of the soul guides me onward.
When I begin to examine myself, I realize there is no self to be found outside the mind. When I break down reality, emptiness is all I can find. Gradually, all things begin to fall apart. I begin to understand that darkness is only present when I see with my physical eyes.
Nothing can attain a higher grade of existence without first ceasing to exist. With death, comes a rebirth into the light.
In the end, I find myself in complete silence. All I feel is a deep sense of humility, gratitude, and reverence for all of life. I experience the gift of complete surrender and abandonment to God.
Then, through the fragmentation, I begin to see unity; beyond the limitations, I see possibilities; in the chaos, I see stillness and order. Everything is reconstituted and the truth is slowly unveiled.
At last, I return to where my journey began and for the first time, I see that the essence of all that exists is light.
“From above it is not bright;
From below it is not dark:
An unbroken thread beyond description.
It returns to nothingness.”
-Tao Te Ching
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